I need a moment.

To think.

The choices I've made

They haunt me.

They haunt me.

Mistake.

After.

Mistake.

And I didn't learn.

No, I didn't learn.

Why did I not learn?

I have failed.

Oh, I have failed.

On a human level.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

The holes I've dug.

Feel mountains deep.

I cannot get out.

Things are broken.

I do not know.

How to fix this.

How to fix me.

I am sorry.

Oh, so sorry.

I wish I was.

More.

Better.

Something else.

Someone.

Accomplished.

Successful.

Fulfilled.

Do not worry.

Do not weep.

For I am not.

Gone.

Yet.

Oh, how I wish I was.

I wish I could.

Say goodbye.

To you.

To me.

To all.

But I cannot.

Do not think.

That I would leave.

Yes, I would.

If only I could.

But I cannot.

I am weak.

I am scared.

I am still.

Earthbound.

Forced to be.

Here.

Forced to be.

Part of this.

All.

This.

Mess.

I ache.

All over.

Inside.

I ache.

All over.

Inside.

I ache.

All over.

Inside.

I ACHE.

All over.

I ache.

For others.

I think too much.

I think too little.

I make mistakes.

I do not learn.

I make mistakes.

Repeat them all.

I make mistakes.

Do not tell me.

Things will be okay.

For I will not believe.

Do not tell me.

Do not guide me.

For I will not follow.

Leave me be.

Leave me.

Leave.

Do not worry.

Do not weep.

Do not.

Do nothing.

Leave me be.

Leave me.

Leave.